Tag Archives: Memories

Anthony David

It seems I am at the end and the beginning, of what it is gone and what it is to come. 

For what may come, I can only dream it, wish it and either, wait for it or run to it. But it would be to run into nothingness.

My dreams come true, if only . . . A memory only or wishful thinking. Unrealistic, exactly, I know reality too well.

To be loved why does it seem that we are not to love ourselves too? To be loved why does it seem that we are to sacrifice our heart and soul?

To keep them, to keep myself then it is for me the endless death of ongoing existence. Or it could only be that I feel sad today and tomorrow he will be gone from my thoughts.

Gone forever, until I see him again or hear him, or maybe until I see a cat or hear the rain. I’ll  forget him until my next Sunday morning cup of coffee.

Or maybe tomorrow I’ll remember when I was hurt, or when I cried, or when I didn’t understand and this thoughts will push him out of my mind.

At the end and at the beginning as it is suppose to be. To make room for what it is to come some things need to be gone. 

Gone, but not gone, never or maybe always.

Gray

In gray skies I dream my dreams,

Of love and loss, of days far gone.

In gray skies I feel the spirit,

Of a man so sad he is bound to laugh.

In gray skies a see a face,

Made of rain, warm bread and a calm smile.

In gray skies,

In rainy days,

A sunless earth full with life.

Weird Things

Today a very weird thing happened as I rode the bus home from work today. When I was in college I used to go to this Spanish cafeteria called Las Torres, I used to go there with my best friend and a couple of other friends when I was in college. It seems so long ago and yet just yesterday, and it seems . . . so far, far away . . . I just remember it, all of a sudden.

I remember the wooden table and chairs, the dim lighting, the . . . was it an aquarium? It was the place to be, the place to see, the place, our place. I remembered it all of a sudden, and then I messaged my best friend. From long time ago, for far away across the sea, from an age were we ran barefoot on the sand.

And by a chance she, a million miles away in space and time, was just so driving in front of Las Torres.

Christian

When I was studying in collegeĀ  – it seems ages ago, and probably was – I was absolutely and amazingly in love with tousled haired boy named Christian, a chemical engineer. At least I thought I was. I remember the last time I saw him, and I remember thinking at the time that it was going to be the last time. I was riding a bus out of my neighborhood and he was riding his bike.

I had not thought about him in over 13 years and last night I had a dream about him.

Randomness

Floating away in the total blueness of your eyes. Absolute silence, except for the sound of the ocean. I see a big green-blue expanse, no! I don’t, I feel it, around me, enveloping me, carrying me away into oblivion. For it is oblivion to loose myself in you, when I forget all others. There is nothing else and there is everything. Everything within me! And you. You, you, always you. . . . Since before we met and after we are gone and forget each other. Always you. And we will be memories, of nothing and everything. Memories of moments that only i remember. Maybe more. Maybe. . . If what I see is true. That it may be.

A mystery, a life that only makes sense in your eyes.