The room was different, I can’t not say in what sense, but it was different. Nonetheless it was the same room. The room, in my grandmother’s house that had been the guest room first then my aunt’s room. I was standing in front of a full-length mirror on the side of the door. I looked at myself and at my short hair, the style was so 70’s that I was surprised at myself. I was also wearing a wedding dress.
A wedding dress with very simple lines, it followed the contour of my body and ended on a small A-line from my thighs down – I’m not sure why this is important but it seemed to be. – The dress had a high collar and it was digging into my neck, so my (long dead) grandmother cut the collar out with a pair of scissors, the collar happened to be a separate piece altogether.
The wedding was celebrated at my grandmother’s house, in her garden and as I came out of the house I saw the groom standing outside. He looked sharp in a black suit, smiling and handsome. Around us in the garden were family members and friends but their faces were blurred.
I don’t remember the ceremony taking place but suddenly we were ready to leave for our honey moon. I called to him but he didn’t come, at least not in a timely fashion. When he finally came he wouldn’t talk to me, didn’t he hear me? My feeling of impotence was overwhelming, maybe too overwhelming for the situation but because of it I made a decision.
My husband was a non-responsive man, obviously my newly wed life wasn’t going as well as anticipated. I decided to get my bags, jump in my car and take my honeymoon trip by myself. Leaving my husband to ponder his lack of . . . response.
It was a highly satisfactory.
- To dream you are getting married may represent your commitment to or partnership with someone or something.
- These dreams suggest a bond with that person you might be getting married too. This could also suggest a long term partnership or tying the knot in some aspect in your life. It is also possible you want to get married.
- May represent a union or merging of the masculine and feminine aspects of yourself.
- May be wish fulfillment, if you desire to get married in waking life.
- Your unconscious may be telling you that you have met the one you should marry.
- If you dream of a wedding dress or wedding ring, you may be evaluating a current relationship and considering the prospect of getting married; you may be considering making a commitment to someone or something.
The doorbell rang but it was the middle of the night, 4:00 am maybe?
At first I thought it couldn’t be, I must’ve been wrong, but my mother opened the door. The door is in the first floor, but when it opened our visitor came in directly to the second floor. I got the impression I knew her, but I couldn’t place her, yet her familiarity told me we must be friends or were at one time.
She was blonde, tall and thin a bit like my friend K but completely different in any other way. Serious and British, with short hair. I’m not sure why we let her in, but there she was and I was showing her the house.
To dream that you hear or ring a door bell indicates that you are open to new experiences. The dream may also be calling attention to something that you have overlooked. Perhaps you do not yet realize that an opportunity is open to you.
We are at a table, maybe a long desk, but I cannot see the room or anything else. He sits at my left and I can see the back of his head, his neck as he looks down at my hand.
He holds my right hand over a white sheet of paper and with a pencil he contours my hand.
Dreaming of our hands is actually not as common as many other parts of the body, but when we do dream of our hands or another’s, it often seems to have an unusually strong significance. Dreaming of hands is often a sign of self awareness, of taking control of our own life and destiny, or or of making an impact through our own actions on another person or the world around us at large. The unusual act of actually looking at your own hands in a dream is used by some to achieve lucidity, that is, to realize that they are actually dreaming.
Our own hands in dreams are often taken for granted, many times simply functioning as tools which we use to make things happen, though we tend to focus more on the action and result than how we made this happen. If we stop long enough to notice our hands in our dreams, it can be a sign that we are becoming aware of our own influence, or lack of it. Dreaming of another person’s hands can often feel very intimate. The two profound symbols of another’s hands in a positive context are of “holding hands” and of the “helping hand.” Both of these images require us to let someone else into our lives, to be open to love, affection, consideration or assistance. For this reason, hand dreams can leave us with a lingering feeling of happiness and warmth long into the day. These dreams may indicate that we are receiving assistance, affection or support from another in a waking life, but in many cases they are a symbolic representation that we are learning how to help our selves, that we are being kind to our selves where once we may have been a harsh judge, that we are befriending a part of ourselves that once we may have ignored or rejected, or even that we are healing a part of ourselves that once was sick and neglected.
I have no fucking clue.
No clue at all of what the hell am I doing.
He lives in my mind, the pain lives here too.
Every good and bad memory, every soft touch and every harsh word.
He lives within time, still and fluid, clear and . . . not so clear.
He makes me cry, he makes me sigh, he makes me dream.
Dreams that turn into nightmares.
He lives in my waking time, he lives in my sleep, he lives in the empty space next to me.
He is trapped in my mind and I am trapped here too.