I had the biggest crush on a singer/songwriter from Austin, TX long before I moved here. I saw him live once in 2012, but since then I hadn’t seen him. I tried to go to a couple of shows but live happens and I didn’t. I did see him a few days a go and he was looking bad. And I mean like Keith Richards bad. I was disappointed but he is a musician. Last night I dreamed about him.
The we were in a high school auditorium, more precisely walking out of the auditorium. We were talking and laughing together, walking to our cars and when we said our good byes he gave me a kiss on my forehead.
I got into my car, but it wasn’t my current car it was the car I had when I was going to college. The cheapest car in existence at the time. I got in and started driving, but no matter how much or how hard I press the accelerator the car wouldn’t go faster than a few miles per hour. Then I decided to walk home instead, but when I came out of my car I noticed I was wearing high heels – which I never wear. – The heels weren’t particularly uncomfortable but they prevent me from walking at my regular pace.
When we think of dolphins we do it with a smile, we think of highly intelligent creatures, adorable and friendly. But are they?
I dreamed I was in a wide river, a river in a rain forest during a bright and sunny day. I was surrounded by rive dolphins, but instead of calming swimming around me they were in a frenzy. I was trapped in a swimming frenzy among violent, aggressive mammals who were bigger than me. I can’t remember if I panicked but I remember drowning in greenish water and foam.
To see a dolphin in your dream symbolizes spiritual guidance, intellect, mental attributes and emotional trust. The dream is usually an inspirational one, encouraging you to utilize your mind to its capacity and move upward in life. Alternatively, it suggests that a line of communication has been established between the conscious and subconscious aspects of yourself. Dolphins represent your willingness and ability to explore and navigate through your emotions.
What if you were a newly bitten vampire?
What if you had to kill somebody and drink their blood?
What if you refused to kill and would be killed in response?
Well, I was a vampire and I had to kill somebody and drink their blood or I would have been killed myself. I walked in darkness through shadows, talked in whispers and spy from afar both humans and vampires.
To dream that you are a vampire signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.
I sit and think about your red beard,
I think about the light reflecting on your red beard,
I think about what words I could write that would match your red beard,
All this I think and I come up with nothing.
Nothing at all.
Then I think of you,
And I think of me,
And I think about your laughter in bed,
All these are my thoughts but still . . .
Nothing about your red beard. Nothing at all.
Then I think about your lopsided smile,
And I think about you pouring me coffee in a Japanese cup,
And I think about eating carrots and celery from your plate,
And all these thoughts about food and drink but not about beard,
Nothing at all.
Nothing about your lovely, scratchy (yeah, sorry I didn’t tell you before) and oddly red beard.
The darkness follows the sorrow and the pain fills the emptiness within,
The emptiness that loves gives, the emptiness that loves creates,
The creation of a beating heart, a soul alight, a touch, a look, a moonlight beam.
Fleeting, ethereal, paranoid.
The pain soaks you, follows you, becomes your companion,
Endless companionship of emptiness and loneliness.
Such is love.